I actually have one.  I may actually be genetically predisposed, as my father used to have an alcohol problem.

But anyway, I recognize this about myself.  I know that I have to be careful with prescription pills, alcohol, caffeine, and other substances with potentially addictive qualities.  Due to my own personal restraint, I have never had any issues with abusing this stuff…but I do  recognize that I have the potential to do so.  

I also recognize that part of why I am into BDSM is because of my addictive personality.  I get off on the rush.  I chase the high.  I enjoy having my limits being pushed because it’s like a higher dose of the “drug.”  In response, my body and mind crave more of it.  Vanilla doesn’t give me this adrenaline rush. 

Because of this, I crash pretty hard after “scenes.”  It’s usually not immediate, but subdrop hits me around 2-3 days after I see Daddy.   The coming down is typically a lot harder for me to deal with than being pushed in a scene.  Admittedly, I am nervous about seeing Daddy this time because I KNOW he is going to push me hard.  I am ready for us to move forward (he has been taking it easy on me) but I am concerned about after. 

But I will keep you all posted…as always, thanks for reading.  ;-)